Tuesday, May 3, 2022

Reflection - Journeying With God - Grace's story - Through the storm

Source (book): "He Walks with Me - Devotions for Your Caregiving Journey with God", PART I "JOURNEYING WITH GOD", Chapter 10 "Grace's story - Through the storm", Page 28.
Adapted from books by Shelly Beach: Ambushed By Grace: Help and Hope in the Caregiving Journey, and It Is Well with My Soul.


After she suffered traumatic brain injury following a fall, Grace's mother needed full-time care.
PHOTO: After she suffered traumatic brain injury following a fall, Grace's mother needed full-time care. She was unable to move, eat, or bathe without help, and could communicate only through blinking and limited eye and hand movements. Grace, her brother, and father decided not to send her to a nursing home, and have put their lives on hold to care for her.

At first, I kept asking, "Why?" I wrestled constantly with God for three years, asking questions like, "Why did this have to happen? Why didn't You intervene?"

Whenever I saw mothers and daughters going out together I would ask God, "Why can't I have the same? Mum is a loving, godly Christian. She loves You, she loves her family, and has brought us up in the fear and knowledge of the Lord. Why is she suffering?"

After three years or so, however, I slowly began to accept the situation. I hadn't received any answers to my questions, but that didn't seem to matter anymore. I started to see how God had been with us all this while. "Perhaps He is teaching us to rely on Him," I told my brother and father.

As we continued to grapple with the accident that changed our lives, we decided that we would not blame God nor allow ourselves to become bitter. Today, we continue to tell God that even if Mum does not survive, we will worship and honour Him, simply because He is God. He deserves our worship, not because of anything He can do or has done for us, but simply because He is God.

The journey has taken a toll on our family. Two years ago, my dad had to undergo surgery twice to replace the valves in his heart. Dad was in hospital for two weeks, so at one point, my brother and I had to take care of both parents.

There are times when I wonder, "How long can we keep this up?" Sometimes, I keep my frustrations to myself. I feel that nobody understands what I'm going through, and I don't want to burden friends with the same issues. But God will always send someone to ask me how I am. My cell group members in church have given me much support.

Dad has also been worried for our careers. I've always wanted to enter the travel industry, but now I avoid travelling as much as possible. I've also had to take frequent no-pay leave to care for Mum.

Sometimes, I worry about my future, but I want to honour my mother first. My brother and I could have taken better-paying jobs, but that would have required us to work longer hours. We both felt that we should take care of Mum while she is still with us - after all, she took care of us when we were growing up. We wouldn't have it any other way.

I have wrestled with this issue, and wondered if I should be putting my life on hold. What's next after she's gone? I believe that God will provide, as He has always done. It's a journey of faith.

Indeed, we've seen God provide us with so much in so many ways. For example, Mum's medical bills are subsidised because she used to be a teacher. We've also had competent, compassionate, and godly full-time helpers. We prayed for good ones, and God provided beyond our expectations. They are loving and treat her like their own mothers, even taking of her on their days off.

We also thank God for the improvement in Mum's condition. The doctors had told us that she would never get better, but we see improvements in small things. She responds more quickly, and her cognitive ability is still strong. Now she can use her right hand to point, give us hand signals - thumbs up or down - and squeeze my hand. She can blink in response - twice for yes and once for no, for example. She can see, listen, think, and respond. She can even appreciate our jokes.

God has also given us much joy and peace. Every time we come home, we are so happy to see Mum. Taking care of Mum is tiring and draining, but we are joyful to see her. Perhaps that's how our heavenly Father sees us.

Someone asked me once if we had ever thought that God had forsaken us. I said, if we started thinking this way, bitterness would set in, and we would give up on God altogether.

I am reminded of what happened when Lazarus died (John 11). Jesus had heard he was sick, but took His time to get to Bethany. When He arrived, Lazarus had died. Mary and Martha must have asked Jesus why He didn't come sooner, but Jesus said that it was for His glory that it happened. We too believe that it is for God's glory that this happened.

I have learnt to see God as our first and last resort. Every time anything happens, we go to Him first. Without God, life would be depressing and hopeless. I'm very honest with God, very candid. I wrestle with Him, and I believe He treasures the process.

I have also learnt that prayer is about courage and faith - courage to ask God for the impossible, and faith to trust in His timing. We do hope that Mum will be healed one day - maybe on earth or maybe not, but certainly in heaven. God has spoken to me through Psalm 71, which tells us that He is our rock and refuge that we can always go to.
 

After she suffered traumatic brain injury following a fall, Grace's mother needed full-time care. She was unable to move, eat, or bathe without help, and could communicate only through blinking and limited eye and hand movements. Grace, her brother, and father decided not to send her to a nursing home, and have put their lives on hold to care for her.


After she suffered traumatic brain injury following a fall, Grace's mother needed full-time care.
PHOTO: After she suffered traumatic brain injury following a fall, Grace's mother needed full-time care. She was unable to move, eat, or bathe without help, and could communicate only through blinking and limited eye and hand movements.
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At first, I kept asking, "Why?" I wrestled constantly with God for three years, asking questions like, "Why did this have to happen? Why didn't You intervene?"

Whenever I saw mothers and daughters going out together I would ask God, "Why can't I have the same? Mum is a loving, godly Christian. She loves You, she loves her family, and has brought us up in the fear and knowledge of the Lord. Why is she suffering?"


At first, I kept asking, 'Why?'
PHOTO: At first, I kept asking, "Why?" I wrestled constantly with God for three years, asking questions like, "Why did this have to happen? Why didn't You intervene?"
Whenever I saw mothers and daughters going out together I would ask God, "Why can't I have the same? Mum is a loving, godly Christian. She loves You, she loves her family, and has brought us up in the fear and knowledge of the Lord. Why is she suffering?"
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After three years or so, however, I slowly began to accept the situation. I hadn't received any answers to my questions, but that didn't seem to matter anymore. I started to see how God had been with us all this while. "Perhaps He is teaching us to rely on Him," I told my brother and father.

As we continued to grapple with the accident that changed our lives, we decided that we would not blame God nor allow ourselves to become bitter. Today, we continue to tell God that even if Mum does not survive, we will worship and honour Him, simply because He is God. He deserves our worship, not because of anything He can do or has done for us, but simply because He is God.


After three years or so, however, I slowly began to accept the situation.
PHOTO: After three years or so, however, I slowly began to accept the situation. I hadn't received any answers to my questions, but that didn't seem to matter anymore. I started to see how God had been with us all this while. "Perhaps He is teaching us to rely on Him," I told my brother and father.
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The journey has taken a toll on our family. Two years ago, my dad had to undergo surgery twice to replace the valves in his heart. Dad was in hospital for two weeks, so at one point, my brother and I had to take care of both parents.

There are times when I wonder, "How long can we keep this up?" Sometimes, I keep my frustrations to myself. I feel that nobody understands what I'm going through, and I don't want to burden friends with the same issues. But God will always send someone to ask me how I am. My cell group members in church have given me much support.


There are times when I wonder,
PHOTO: There are times when I wonder, "How long can we keep this up?" Sometimes, I keep my frustrations to myself. I feel that nobody understands what I'm going through, and I don't want to burden friends with the same issues. But God will always send someone to ask me how I am. My cell group members in church have given me much support.
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Dad has also been worried for our careers. I've always wanted to enter the travel industry, but now I avoid travelling as much as possible. I've also had to take frequent no-pay leave to care for Mum.

Sometimes, I worry about my future, but I want to honour my mother first. My brother and I could have taken better-paying jobs, but that would have required us to work longer hours. We both felt that we should take care of Mum while she is still with us - after all, she took care of us when we were growing up. We wouldn't have it any other way.

I have wrestled with this issue, and wondered if I should be putting my life on hold. What's next after she's gone? I believe that God will provide, as He has always done. It's a journey of faith.


I have wrestled with this issue, and wondered if I should be putting my life on hold.
PHOTO: I have wrestled with this issue, and wondered if I should be putting my life on hold. What's next after she's gone? I believe that God will provide, as He has always done. It's a journey of faith.
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Indeed, we've seen God provide us with so much in so many ways. For example, Mum's medical bills are subsidised because she used to be a teacher. We've also had competent, compassionate, and godly full-time helpers. We prayed for good ones, and God provided beyond our expectations. They are loving and treat her like their own mothers, even taking of her on their days off.


Indeed, we've seen God provide us with so much in so many ways.
PHOTO: Indeed, we've seen God provide us with so much in so many ways. For example, Mum's medical bills are subsidised because she used to be a teacher. We've also had competent, compassionate, and godly full-time helpers. We prayed for good ones, and God provided beyond our expectations. They are loving and treat her like their own mothers, even taking of her on their days off.
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We also thank God for the improvement in Mum's condition. The doctors had told us that she would never get better, but we see improvements in small things. She responds more quickly, and her cognitive ability is still strong. Now she can use her right hand to point, give us hand signals - thumbs up or down - and squeeze my hand. She can blink in response - twice for yes and once for no, for example. She can see, listen, think, and respond. She can even appreciate our jokes.

God has also given us much joy and peace. Every time we come home, we are so happy to see Mum. Taking care of Mum is tiring and draining, but we are joyful to see her. Perhaps that's how our heavenly Father sees us.


We also thank God for the improvement in Mum's condition
PHOTO: We also thank God for the improvement in Mum's condition. The doctors had told us that she would never get better, but we see improvements in small things. She responds more quickly, and her cognitive ability is still strong. Now she can use her right hand to point, give us hand signals - thumbs up or down - and squeeze my hand. She can blink in response - twice for yes and once for no, for example. She can see, listen, think, and respond. She can even appreciate our jokes.
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Someone asked me once if we had ever thought that God had forsaken us. I said, if we started thinking this way, bitterness would set in, and we would give up on God altogether.

I am reminded of what happened when Lazarus died (John 11). Jesus had heard he was sick, but took His time to get to Bethany. When He arrived, Lazarus had died. Mary and Martha must have asked Jesus why He didn't come sooner, but Jesus said that it was for His glory that it happened. We too believe that it is for God's glory that this happened.


I am reminded of what happened when Lazarus died (John 11).
PHOTO: I am reminded of what happened when Lazarus died (John 11). Jesus said that it was for His glory that it happened. We too believe that it is for God's glory that Grace's mother suffered traumatic brain injury following a fall.
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PHOTO: I have learnt to see God as our first and last resort. Every time anything happens, we go to Him first. Without God, life would be depressing and hopeless.
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I have also learnt that prayer is about courage and faith - courage to ask God for the impossible, and faith to trust in His timing. We do hope that Mum will be healed one day - maybe on earth or maybe not, but certainly in heaven. God has spoken to me through Psalm 71, which tells us that He is our rock and refuge that we can always go to.


I have also learnt that prayer is about courage and faith - courage to ask God for the impossible, and faith to trust in His timing.
PHOTO: I have also learnt that prayer is about courage and faith - courage to ask God for the impossible, and faith to trust in His timing. God has spoken to us through Psalm 71, which tells us that He is our rock and refuge that we can always go to.
Picture posted by 699pic
PHOTO: "Dear Lord,
Though you have made me see troubles,
many and bitter,
you will restore my life again;
from the depths of the earth
you will again bring me up.
You will increase my honour
and comfort me once more.
I will praise you with the harp
for your faithfulness, my God;
I will sing praise to you with the lyre,
Holy One of Israel. (Psalm 71:20-22)

Through Lord Jesus Christ we pray. Amen!"
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Reflection - Journeying With God - Grace's story - Through the storm
Source (book): "He Walks with Me - Devotions for Your Caregiving Journey with God", PART I "JOURNEYING WITH GOD", Chapter 10 "Grace's story - Through the storm", Page 28.
Adapted from books by Shelly Beach: Ambushed By Grace: Help and Hope in the Caregiving Journey, and It Is Well with My Soul.



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Reference
[1] From "He Walks with Me - Devotions for Your Caregiving Journey with God", Copyright © 2018 by Our Daily Bread Ministries, PART I "JOURNEYING WITH GOD", Chapter 10 "Grace's story - Through the storm", Page 28-31.


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