Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Hopeless

Source Website: http://www.positive-personal-growth.com/i-hate-my-life-and-feel-hopeless.html
By Anonymous



PHOTO: Hopeless (manip Tut)
By Andrei Florin Oprinca
http://www.advancedphotoshop.co.uk/users/18080/thm1024/hopeless.jpg
http://www.advancedphotoshop.co.uk/image/43270/hopeless_manip_tut
Photoshop tutorial: http://www.psdbox.com/tutorials/hopeless-photoshop-manipulation-tutorial/


I'm ugly & fat (never should have been born)

I am 49 (I would like to say I am a woman but since I was told I am not even human but a disgusting monster.....)

Anyway, I still live with one of my remaining parents (as the other passed away almost 9 years ago).



PHOTO: I was told I am not even human but a disgusting monster.
By ~sleepless-katith
http://fc04.deviantart.net/fs28/i/2008/058/c/0/Fat__Angel_by_sleepless_katith.jpg
http://sleepless-katith.deviantart.com/art/Fat-Angel-v-01-78553426


My problem is I am hideous looking and no one wants to look at me let alone be on the same planet as me.

Pathetic (pitiful) as it is, I have come to live in my own little world after I graduated (which was over 30 years ago).

So for those over 30 years I have had 2 soap operas that I lived and breathed on and one of them was taken away from me this past Friday and the other one is rumored to end in September. Being the last straw (if General Hospital goes) I really think suicide is the only answer.



PHOTO: No one wants to look at me let alone be on the same planet as me.
By ~sleepless-katith
http://fc01.deviantart.net/fs70/i/2010/274/f/2/fat__angel_by_sleepless_katith-d2zu85l.jpg
http://sleepless-katith.deviantart.com/art/Fat-Angel-181129161


Over the last 10 years I have also lived on the internet trying to make friends as they would never see the horrible ugliness that I look like but unfortunately out of those 10 years using the internet there was only one person who stuck with me from the beginning back in 2001. Unfortunately she passed away last summer, I now have no one in this world.



PHOTO: Sad-angel from Ninot Exhibition in Valencia
By For91days, this photo was taken on February 9, 2010.
http://farm3.staticflickr.com/2739/4343755519_f04dc1bdc6_o.jpg
http://www.flickr.com/photos/jhfoto/4343755519/sizes/o/in/photostream/


My mom is too old trying to struggle for herself and worry about others. And since I can never live outside of 4 walls to be seen, giving my age, I think it is just time to give up on life. At 20, I was not that bad off, at 30 things did start to sink in but I still struggled. At 40 it really became bad when I lost my father but now at practically 50 years old, I am really done.



Hopeless. At 40 it really became bad, but now at practically 50 years old, I am really done. PHOTO: Hopeless. At 40 it really became bad, but now at practically 50 years old, I am really done.
http://fc05.deviantart.net/fs47/f/2009/198/2/a/hopeless_angel_by_angelozi.jpg
http://angelozi.deviantart.com/art/hopeless-angel-129885157


It is really pathetic and no hope now. It is really bad when someone who is practically half a century old that has always been living with a parent, never having friends, still a virgin and there is much much more but I won't go too much into it, just that it is really bad and it has me in tears every day I wake up and every night I go to bed.

Yeah I really wish I was never born. Big mistake.
By Anonymous



PHOTO: "Love is beautiful" how many times you ever heard that. In real life almost none, you only hear it in movies and on TV.
http://www.flixya.com/files-photo/n/o/n/nona202466250.jpg
http://www.flixya.com/photo/2466250/SAD-ANGEL


Hopeless (manip Tut)
PHOTO: Hopeless (manip Tut)
By Andrei Florin Oprinca
https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg2VRxG0I23yKFMFHug6HsCVvFNeRKcwdqHZ0LhCw7_9jMmgK-V7lqRwTVfQGXN1XyPSHih8lG6v_LlXTlNXGZVKTVVGovsPnnfh3au6JDqtomchkUoVM4DwiQ7VlvdLav6_eL3fsEO5BE/s800/Hopeless.gif
 http://www.advancedphotoshop.co.uk/users/18080/thm1024/hopeless.jpg
http://www.advancedphotoshop.co.uk/image/43270/hopeless_manip_tut
Photoshop tutorial: http://www.psdbox.com/tutorials/hopeless-photoshop-manipulation-tutorial/



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